Not a good month. And way behind.

This streaming thing is doing my head in and i feel burnt out and totally lack motivation.

Doesnt help getting distracted by playing jazz piano to the huge jazz playalong collection i've amassed. I've also been doing just basically jamming as opposed to serious practice.

This week i burned way too much time getting this jam session campaign thing going. Its cool to finally find some pro musicians and singers in town. I'm very insecure about meeting up and getting rejections due to not being at the standard they play at. Why is it that i never seem to be able to juggle many projects and appointments simultaneusly ?.

Basically im depressed. And next year i turn 50 and I really dont like it.

This project was going so well this summer and now it seems to have hit treacle.

I think i need a break seriously. A holiday, but no cash. Cant win.

And frankly i could do without bloody christmas.

Bah Humbug.